Woke up nauseous this morning, and didn’t go in to work. Nothing really serious, though; I should be fine by tomorrow.
Mom and I wandered around my garden for a little while, doing a bit of
I then watched The Castle of Cagliostro, an early Miyazaki film. It’s an adventure flick, in a similar vein to the Pink Panther movies. I loved it; it was a lot of fun. Lupin is a blast.
A big storm swept through in the evening, so I and my parents sat up in the sewing room with the windows open, letting the cool breeze envelop us as it blew through. It passed within a few hours, giving us time to talk about Bible churches, and movies, and trusting people, and what it really means to be a church pastor (living a life, not just walking a walk and talking a talk).
Then Saalon shamed me by writing half a teaser for an online webdrama he volunteered to do some work on, on top of chatting with me for much of the day and working a full day at the video store. And here I haven’t written a word on Wine in days. I must purpose to be more productive like that.
I’ve also been thinking about some things about myself that my Mom pointed out last night. Namely, that I have a very good opinion of myself, and as a result I’m lenient on myself because I see myself as being a good person. It’s sort of a weird cyclical delusion: I see myself as being a Good Employee, so I cut myself a lot of slack, which makes me not a Good Employee. And then, when I fail myself, I’m very
Plus, I have a vanity problem. I need to work on these things, to see myself for what I truly am, as well as what I want to be.