Nervousness

Mar 14 2006

I’m going out on a date on Thursday.

This is the first time I’ve ever gone out on a date. Really. I was homeschooled through high school, then commuted every day to college. I’ve had a few crushes, but nobody I’ve wanted to pursue.

Meanwhile, over the past few months, I’ve been hearing the ticking of my biological clock. I’m almost thirty years old now. If I got married tomorrow, when my kids are in their teens I’d be in my fifties. Which is fine, but I don’t want to push it too far.

So I’ve been using eHarmony, looking for someone. And now there’s a girl who I’ve been e-mailing and IMing, and we agreed to go out to Starbuck’s on Thursday.

It’s an oddly frightening feeling. I feel like a fourteen-year-old with acne. Worse, I feel like I should have gotten over this when I was fourteen. I’m more than a little frustrated that I’m only now going through something that everyone else went through when they were half my age. And it’s not like I should have dated a few girls just “for practice,” but still. These jitters feel frustratingly juvenile.

Nothing I can do about them, though. And they’re minor; I feel mostly calm about it. I’ll go, and we’ll chat. She sounds like a great person; I’m sure I’ll have a great time. But I’ll still have to face this nervousness.

“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear—not absence of fear.”

— Mark Twain (1835–1910)

Comments:

Shadrone What makes you think that’s a feeling that people you think of as experienced at dating don’t feel? Embrase the butterflys, it’s part of life. Relax and enjoy the time, have fun. Hmm. It’s not a test you can practice for, this is life. Just live it for the experience.
Shadrone Ignore spelling. I sux.
Stephen That’s awesome! Go Brent! The jitters are a natural part of the dating process that no one really ever gets over. You wouldn’t believe how tough it was for me to ask Sarah out on our first date. The butterflies setup a small colony in my stomach. :-)

So have fun, relax, and good luck!

Gret Congradulations, enjoy Thursday.
Alice I think you’ll do great.
Nik Just be yourself, and if it goes well then that’s great, if it goes bad then at least try to be friendly and above all just be yourself.

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