Tuesday, October 9, 2001

Today could be seen as a day of balance.

I woke up this morning feeling quite sick, with a sore throat and an upset stomach. I didn’t go to the Men’s Academy, instead calling my boss at work and telling him that I wouldn’t come in today.

Then, after some hot tea and soup from my Mom, I re-watched Kiki’s Delivery Service. It was so good that I cried at the end. I think it was partly due to the fantastic film itself, partly due to my weakened physical state, and partly due to the epiphany I experienced near the end of watching the film.

I’ve heard people say that you have to find your skill in life. Your talent. The one thing that you do. I’ve always wondered what my skill is.

While watching Kiki’s Delivery Service, my vision of myself coalesced. I realize that I create worlds. I create worlds on the page, or in a computer, or as a garden. That is my skill. That’s what I do.

This realization changed me. I began organizing my room, and I realized that, while I was sick, I wasn’t too sick to stay home. So, I went to work for the afternoon. And I got stuff done.

Afterwards I bought a new flip case for my Visor, since my previous one broke. I don’t like the new one (from Rhino Skin), but it was all they had.

When I came home, I had a delicious home-cooked meal of macaroni and cheese, then proceeded to get some work done on Landscape. I’m also moving answering some Wine e-mails. Though I haven’t done my devotions or practiced drawing yet tonight (I try to do so every evening), I’ve been satisfyingly productive.