Archive for January, 2005

January 31, 2005

Jan 31 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

My truck wasn’t towed. I got a temporary extension through February, so I’ll have time to get my truck tested for emissions and return to the DMV. To my delight, I spent a total of maybe five minutes at the DMV.

I’m feeling better today, by the way. Much of the black hue to yesterday’s entry was caused by my illness, I think. I always feel down when I’m sick. And I’m sick every couple of months. A co-worker suggested that I may be having an allergic reaction to something. That makes sense; I’m a moderately active guy, and I eat lots of healthy foods, so I shouldn’t be sick this often.

My to-do list today wasn’t as magical as it has been in the past. I did get through about half the items on the list, though.

In particular, since I’ve been taking care of my parent’s golden retriever Molly for the past week, one of my tasks has been to train her while she’s here. She’s pretty good at ”Come” and ”Sit,” and I want her to be used to ”Down,” “Stand,” and ”Stay” before she leaves.

My training system is pretty straightforward. I have a bowl of dry kibble on my desk. Whenever I have a moment to spare, I grab a few pieces of kibble and tell Molly to ”Come.” Her eyes are always glued to those pieces of kibble. I maneuver the kibble to move her into position. So, for example, I’ll say “Down” as I move the kibble straight down to the floor. When she moves into position, I give her the piece of kibble. If she doesn’t move properly, I simply re-position her and do it again (no reprimands).

It’s remarkably effective. I’ll only do a couple of commands per session and maybe three or four sessions per day, but she’ll learn a command within a couple of days.

In other news, David Willis (the creator of It’s Walky) is now drawing Shortpacked!, which deals with the employees of a toy store. I’m enjoying it; Willis has a good sense of oddball humor.

12:00 a.m.

Want to play DOOM 3 but don’t have an expensive 3D video card? Just play the board game.

The idea’s not quite as oddball as it first appeared to me. It looks like a fun monster destruction romp. Courtesy Ludology.

Ugh. I’ve had a pretty miserable weekend.

I came down with a cold late Thursday, which has kept me home pretty much all weekend. Which would be fine if I could actually get anything done while home. Instead, I watched anime (Samurai Champloo, R.O.D the TV, Martian Successor Nadesico, Tenchi GXP, and Zeta Gundam). All were enjoyable at different levels, but they weren’t nearly as important as the various things I needed to do this weekend.

For example, I didn’t finish proofing that novel, or scan Otherspace Productions artwork, or write, or read much of anything. And I could have done much of that if I hadn’t felt like used chewing gum.

I’m also still taking care of my parents’ dog, who’s sweet but very confused and upset by being (A) away from her regular home and (B) away from her regular people. I can understand it, but I’m still annoyed at her desperate antics when I so much as put on my coat.

On top of all that, I got a sticker on my truck warning me to move it within 48 hours or it’ll be towed (I apparently forgot to pay for my 2005 registration; I found the form under a bunch of papers). Of course, that was tacked onto my truck Saturday morning before a big snow storm, so there hasn’t been a DMV open since then to allow me to re-register. So now I’m worried that I’ll go outside tomorrow to find my truck’s been towed. There’s something I don’t need to happen.

Worse, I can’t go to sleep tonight, and I need to get to work at a reasonable time tomorrow, because my boss has previously expressed his displeasure that I’m sick so often. And my cold was pretty bad today, which makes me worry that I won’t be completely healed tomorrow. I do not want to have to drag myself in to work tomorrow, sick and fatigued, especially if I have to face an unhappy boss. Assuming my truck is still there tomorrow morning.

So, all things considered, I want to curl up in bed and avoid the world. Except that I can’t go to sleep, so I can’t even do that. My worries just continue to circle my bed, nagging at me….

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Saturday, January 29, 2005

Jan 29 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

I’ve found that an effective way to keep a project on-track is to test it. By ”project,” I mean anything from writing a book to implementing a to-do list, as I’m doing.

I had a total of fifty-nine items on my new weekly to-do list this past week (some of them regular chores like laundry, others specific tasks like calling about my DSL service). Of those, I completed thirty-seven, and another seven could not be completed for various reasons (I couldn’t update matrix experiments lain, for example, because we didn’t meet last week so I had nothing to add). That leaves fifteen items that I just didn’t get to.

So here’s what that looks like:


Completed 37 (63%)
Not Completeable 7 (12%)
Incomplete 15 (25%)
TOTAL 59

Most of the incomplete items are daily tasks, such as practicing Japanese. Thus, I’m assuming that I find it easier to take care of occasional tasks than ones that I have to stare at every single day.

Hmmm. Perhaps I should make those daily tasks slightly less frequent, such as every other day.

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Jan 26 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

John Carmack has his own blog now.

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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Jan 25 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

I sometimes think that, if I put my entire to-do list on one day on my calendar, I’d get it all done on that day.

For example, here’s what I wanted to accomplish today: Make about seven phone calls, go to the grocery store, make a fish dinner, do a load of laundry, proof more of that novel, bake a batch of chocolate chip cookies that I can munch on at work instead of buying snacks from the machine, fill out the tax forms for Otherspace Productions, write at least two hundred words of the VR story, and practice Japanese.

I’ve done it all. Partly because it was all on my to-do list, and partly because it’s all in support of my goals and desires in life. I want to eat well, and bake, and write, and keep Otherspace Productions going. When my to-do lists support those goals, I want to do ‘em.

One of those phone calls was to Verizon to find out why my DSL hardware hasn’t arrived. Surprise! My service was cancelled. Not by me: they cancelled it for me, when they found out that my house was so far away from the nearest switch that I didn’t qualify for their normal rates. Of course, they didn’t bother to tell me this.

According to the Verizon rep I talked to, my house is so far from the switch that I might just barely be able to squeeze some bandwidth down that pipe, but it’d be miniscule. I’m literally a few hundred feet from the maximum distance to get any sort of signal.

So I ordered DSL from Earthlink, which appears to support my location well. Judging from some of the forums I’ve checked, Earthlink’s a decent high-speed internet provider; at least, these third-party forums aren’t filled with enraged customers. Most of the posts are normal troubleshooting or information requests.

I should get my hardware by the weekend, and my line should be active by the beginning of next week. I hope to be online at home by the end of next week, an event to which I’m greatly looking forward. And hey, Earthlink explicitly supports Mac OS, which is a relief to me.

And now, as promised, a big VR story update:

That night, a shadow swam through the streets and alleys of the city, a figure so fast and so quiet and so stealthy that it was barely noticed by the drunks and the homeless. It slithered up a fire escape and slipped through the shadows of ventilation tubes, barely whispering across the gravel on the roof. It stopped above a skylight.

If anyone had been there to see it, they would have seen the outline of a man, dressed in Japanese clothes in various dark shades of dark and navy blue. His black hair was pulled back in a small knot, and his intense face peered down through the window, like a hawk studying prey.

He turned and glided to a nearby ventilation shaft, then folded himself into it and descended into the bowels of the building, with only the occasional slight sigh of shifting metal to advertise his passage. He found an appropriate grate, silently opened it from the inside, and climbed out into a small storage closet. A few moments later, he was in the hallway, turning the knob on a door and silently pushing it open with his left hand.

Before him was a large, empty room, lit only by the moonlight streaming down from the skylight in the center of the ceiling. Motes of dust hung suspended in the light like stars. And, in the exact center of that light sat Doodlehopper, her legs crossed, wearing her black jacket, shirt, pants, and boots. Her hands lay open on her legs, and as the intruder entered the room, her eyes opened and looked straight at him.

He held his place, inwardly surprised at this turn of events. He had not expected the girl to be so prepared. He knew better than to underestimate a prepared enemy, so he waited, gauging her. She did not move, simply watching him, for several moments.

Then she moved her hands to either side of her body and stood as smooth as a cat, the scabbard strapped to her side dangling heavily. His eyes fastened themselves on that scabbard, noting its every motion as it swayed next to her hips. Slowly, but not leisurely, she put her right hand on the hilt and tugged. Ah! It was not a scabbard; it was a bokken, a practice sword, probably made of some lightweight metal. It detached easily from the clip on her belt and she swung it forward, grasping it with her left hand to hold it upright in front of her, her eyes still staring straight at her opponent.

He put his feet together and stood straight, pulling himself up to his full six feet in height, then announced, “Please put that down.”

She snorted. “Like hell.”

“That bokken will stop my blade no better than a blade of grass. I do not wish to see a good instrument wasted. Please put it down.”

She shook her head, slowly, keeping her eyes on him. “I have the right to defend myself with whatever I have. You’re just gonna have to deal.”

He sighed, like a parent confronting a petulant child. “Since I have been unable to kill you immediately, I must ask you this: Do you still protect Thomas Aznable?”

One of Doodlehopper’s eyelids twitched slightly; whether from irritation or exertion, he could not tell. “Why d’you wanna know that?” she asked. “Gotta write it down in your Killing Diary?” His face clouded. She allowed herself a small, vicious smile, and continued: “‘Tuesday: Bought bread, went out with Cindy, killed a guy in his sleep.’”

“Mr. Aznable is currently sleeping in a motel room twenty-two blocks from this building,” the man said, his voice betraying a thin edge of annoyance. “If you are still pledged as his protector, you seem to be doing an odd job of protecting him.”

Her vicious smile turned positively nasty. “You think I care what you think of me? You, a petty assassin who slaughters the innocent for a quick buc—”

And he was ten feet in front of her, his sword already out of its sheath, the thin blade glowing in the moonlight and arcing towards her right side like the grin of Death’s Cheshire Cat. She shifted her weight and shoved her weapon towards his, knocking his sword out of the way with a clang as she turned back inwards and swung the blade with all her might towards his stomach and chest….

But it was no longer there; he glided out of the way and pulled himself back a few feet. How did he do that? she thought. He reversed his momentum in mid-strike!

She regained her balance and paused, studying him. His face betrayed him; he was watching her with greater intensity now. She gave herself a mental high-five for that.

“Do you protect Thomas Aznable?” he asked again, his voice as unperturbed as when he’d first asked it.

She grunted. “Persistent little bugger, aren’t you? Okay. Yeah, I guess I do.”

She saw him as he accelerated forward this time, giving her a larger window of opportunity to respond. But he didn’t slow down, and angled past her to her left. She was puzzled for half an instant, then with all her strength she pushed her legs off the floor and slid to her right. He raised his blade almost languidly, and it flew through the air where her kidneys had been. She fancied she could feel its breath whisper along her side. He spun to face her but did not move further; she risked a glance down and saw the fabric of her jacket gaping down where his sword had cut clean through it.

She pushed down the panicked fears of a blade and a man that could cut through leather like a finger slicing through air and returned her attention to her opponent, but as she did he rocketed forward, bringing his steel around in a devastating arc that she knew could cut clean through her neck.

So she raised her blade to block. His mouth twisted slightly in amusement, knowing she didn’t have the strength and the position to fully block his blow. At the final instant she twisted her hands slightly.

His steel met hers and an explosion threw his sword away, electricity arcing in sinuous waves between her bokken and his blade until he drew back to a comfortable distance. His eyes were wide and his nostrils flared in indignant surprise. She smirked.

“Wait a sec,” she said. “I thought you wanted to fight?” She shifted her weight onto her back foot and yelled, “Let’s fight,” launching herself at him with every pound of weight and strength she could muster.

She attempted a kote, the end of her bokken reaching for her opponent’s wrist. He pulled back yet further — though he was only a few feet from the wall now — and with inhuman speed spun his wrist around her thrust. A quarter-second later he was lunging at her towards his left, pulling his sword with him so as to slice into her left side. She ducked to her right, plowing into his chest and pulling the bokken towards her, hoping to trap him between its pulsing electricity and her body. But this meant grabbing his sword arm, leaving the deadly steel on its end to strike her back. Sure enough, she felt the muscles in his arm constrict, so she planted her feet and spun him away. He came to a rest nearly in the corner, and as he did she realized that he had allowed her to break their dangerous embrace, probably knowing that neither would leave it unscathed.

“You have great skill,” he said, watching her carefully as he raised his sword into a ready position.

Chudan kamae,” she murmured, and his eyes widened a fraction of an inch as she leapt forward in a men uchi or blow to the head, her bokken whistling through the air ahead of her in a neon shimmer of electricity. He feinted to the right and brought his sword around in a deadly arc towards her exposed left side. She just caught his movement in enough time to swing her bokken towards his blade, making contact. Light exploded from the steel of his sword where it made contact with the crackling lightning of her bokken, then she was surprised to realize that he was holding his sword in place, pushing against her. She shifted her weight enough to let both weapons slide to the hilt, still locked, and she heaved forward with all her strength.

He held her at nearly arm’s length, adjusting his stance every so often to keep her bokken from coming near him. Energy cascaded off the connected metal, sparking and flashing like fireworks. She glared grimly into his eyes, which were as calm as that of a professor studying a specimen.

She couldn’t help frowning. She was just barely keeping him at bay, and he showed no sign of running out of tricks. She remembered a pitched battle against her sensei once, and his strikes and slashes were just like this. Well, not quite as deadly, but just as calm and focused as this man’s.

Fear rushed into her mind, flooding her with a cold, clammy feeling of dread. She saw her death standing just beyond this man. He waited.

Now that you’re done reading it, note the new poll; what do you think of this new entry?

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Monday, January 24, 2005

Jan 24 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

(Note: I finally uploaded entries for the last few days, including a VR story snippet on Thursday. I plan to post a big VR story update tomorrow to make up for my lack of updates recently.)

The to-do list worked well today, too. I took my parents to the airport, then after a quick dinner at a local Asian restaurant, I picked up Molly (my parents’ golden retriever, who I’m taking care of while they’re away) and returned home without incident.

Poor Molly was literally hang-dog the whole time. She held her head low and barely moved for the first half of the trip, which is normal when my parents leave. She perked up by the time I reached home, though.

I then implemented a quick fix to Cronan, which I intend to send off for testing tomorrow. If that goes well, Cronan will be finished. I can’t wait to get that off my chest.

I also spent a bit more time proofing that novel. Forty pages to go. This is work. Hopefully, I’ll be able to finish it by the end of the week.

And I watched episode 35 of Gudam Seed, which is the last that’s been released. Wow. The plot is getting heavy and pretty deep, and I am extremely impressed that Kira is turning into something approaching Nausica

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Monday, January 24, 2005

Jan 24 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

(Note: I finally uploaded entries for the last few days, including a VR story snippet on Thursday. I plan to post a big VR story update tomorrow to make up for my lack of updates recently.)

The to-do list worked well today, too. I took my parents to the airport, then after a quick dinner at a local Asian restaurant, I picked up Molly (my parents’ golden retriever, who I’m taking care of while they’re away) and returned home without incident.

Poor Molly was literally hang-dog the whole time. She held her head low and barely moved for the first half of the trip, which is normal when my parents leave. She perked up by the time I reached home, though.

I then implemented a quick fix to Cronan, which I intend to send off for testing tomorrow. If that goes well, Cronan will be finished. I can’t wait to get that off my chest.

I also spent a bit more time proofing that novel. Forty pages to go. This is work. Hopefully, I’ll be able to finish it by the end of the week.

And I watched episode 35 of Gudam Seed, which is the last that’s been released. Wow. The plot is getting heavy and pretty deep, and I am extremely impressed that Kira is turning into something approaching Nausica

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Sunday, January 23, 2005

Jan 23 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

Well, the weekly to-do list worked today, at least. I did pretty much everything:

  • I tried to go to church, but the parking lot was almost empty (no doubt thanks to the snow).
  • So I drove over to Starbucks and spent about two hours online there, researching accountants for Otherspace Productions, updating Syllable.org, advertising my spare bedroom for rent on CraigsList, updating SUB, and updating the OS on Navi2.
  • I then dove back into Cronan, a BeOS application that I’m writing at the request of a really cool BeOS guy. Unfortunately, I’ve felt absolutely no interest in working on it lately, despite his great patience with me. I did manage to prototype the last big feature, so I can at least report that we’re on track to be done soon. If I can, I’ll do some more work on it tomorrow.
  • I grouted the new tile floor at the entrance to my townhouse. The grout ended up quite rough, actually, but I did the best I could with what I had, and I’m proud that I at least did it. Took quite a long time, too; an hour and a half to grout fifteen tiles.

Tomorrow, I’ll be driving my parents to the airport in the evening and bringing their golden retriever back to my place for the two weeks they’ll be gone. That should still give me plenty of time to work on Cronan, though. Eh, we’ll see.

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Saturday, January 22, 2005

Jan 22 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

Arg, forgot to upload Friday’s entry, which was my penance for forgetting to upload any of the VR story last week. I’m beginning to think I should upload the VR story on a different day, since I’m sure not remembering to post it on Wednesdays.

I sort of relaxed on today. Oh, I did a few chores: laundry, a bit of house cleaning, etc. But mostly I spent the day doing things I enjoy: I cooked a pot of beef stew—an excellent accompaniment to the four inches of snow that fell today—and I watched some anime. I finished the second disc of Paranoia Agent (which started downright creeping me out by the end; while the first disc was more like Millenium Actress, the second is leaning towards Perfect Blue), Zeta Gundam (which is slowly establishing some very interesting characters, including a reticent jock), and Gundam Seed (which was good up to episode 22 and is drop-dead fabulous thereafter).

On Saturday, I also collated my Master Mind Map with a detailed to-do list I’d written a few months ago. The to-do list was an attempt to actually list everything that I want to do, broken down by category and task. After I re-arranged that list around my personal goals and desires, I found I was much more interested in accomplishing it.

So, I extracted everything in the to-do list that referenced a regular, day-of-the-week item (like strength training every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday), and assembled a weekly to-do list. This list contains each day of the next week, and what I want to do on each day.

Then I skimmed the big to-do list for a bunch of one-time things I want to get done, and inserted them into my week based on when I’ll probably have time. I made sure to leave quite a lot of spare time in each day for unexpected things.

So. I look forward to seeing how this works.

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Thursday, January 20, 2005

Jan 20 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

Not much to write about. except my apologies for forgetting to post more of the VR story this week. I’ll post a bit after the following review of The Seventh Seal, which I wrote several months ago and now have a chance to post.

It’s a weird film. The plot is primarily philosophical, dealing with the apparent silence of God. The protagonist is a knight returning from the Crusades and questioning his faith. After he washes up on his homeland’s shores, Death appears to him in bodily form, but the knight challenges Death to a game of chess so that he can have enough time to perform one good deed before dying.

The film chronicles the next day or so of the knight’s life, as he and his squire observe the people around them. The Black Plague has struck hard, and its horrible effects are being blamed on everyone from supposed witches to widespread sin. Indeed, the film is literally interrupted part-way by a procession of chanting priests and wailing flagellants who stumble past, their eyes focused upwards or inwards but never outwards.

It’s a weird film. Every shot looks like a professional black-and-white photograph, creatively framed and intriguing. Ebert suggests that this is as much a silent film as a talkie, and I agree. While there’s plenty of dialogue, the film relies on visual storytelling. Bergman composes his shots so that the eye always has something new to feast upon.

It’s an unsettling film, too, but it’s supposed to be. It’s about the silence of God, after all, and the film has many awkward silences and still points. The characters seem always off-balance, like a mediocre Shakespearean company that can’t quite remember its lines. Some bluff their way through life, some ignore it, some struggle to make themselves heard or to understand. But everyone and everything in the film has a dream-like unreality.

I feel like I should finish this little review by explaining whether I liked or disliked it. Neither word applies to The Seventh Seal. You’re not supposed to like the silence of God, and this film makes it uncomfortable. It perfectly captures the nature of its subject matter. The film left me with a sense of disquiet, and I pondered the nature of God afterwards. How many films can do that?

Doodlehopper shook her head. “I’m not guarding your guy anymore.”

They both looked surprised, then the first thug said, “That doesn’t matter. They’ll come after you now anyway.”

She’d expected that. Groups with the cash and cajones to hire nutjobs like Grey Hackle always wanted every loose end tied up. She knew she’d continue to be a target; she’d just hoped she could get enough distance to keep the heat off…oh well.

She gave them hard looks, searching them. She couldn’t shake the impression of frightened kids. And from the looks of them, that’s pretty much what they were.

Finally she blew out a breath and said, “Give me the info on tonight’s attack. If it checks out, we’ll meet again here at, oh, ten tomorrow morning.”

Their faces lit up with hope and they nodded. The second one explained, “Tonight, you’ll be attacked by Zazun the Blade. He always attacks at night. He uses some sort of swords, but we don’t know what kind or even how many. He’s silent and not flashy at all. Usually kills very clean. But when things get messy, uhhh…so does he. I saw some of the cop photos. Blood and stuff everywhere. He’ll go after you first, then Aznable.”

She nodded, then stood. “I’ll be ready.”

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Jan 19 2005 Published by under Miscellaneous

[Paranoia Agent image]

It’s going to be a bulleted list day, mainly because I got quite a bit done.

  • Stopped by Suncoast and bought Paranioa Agent volume 2, Samura Champloo volume 1, R.O.D the TV volume 4, and El Mariachi.
  • Watched two more episodes of Gundam SEED, which is becoming increasingly fantastic, and episode five of Paranoia Agent, which continues the almost unimaginable excellence of the first four episodes.
  • Made chili in preparation for the Chili Cook-Off at work, and it turned out quite tasty. Easy recipe: Brown two pounds of ground beef (seasoned with salt, pepper, and chile powder), chop two onions and sweat them with some oil and garlic for a few minutes in a large pot, then add two chopped red bell peppers, five chopped chiles (heads and seeds removed), a can of beans, and a can of crushed tomatoes. Simmer for ten minutes, then add the beef and lower the heat to low-medium and cook for 45 minutes.
  • Wrote a decent ending to ”The Old Man,” though I’m still not happy with it. I may need to write a few more endings, just to figure out how I really want to end it.

In other news, my new laptop is holding up pretty well, though it feels cheaper than Navi. The keys feel fragile and the material feels thinner, more like a child’s toy than a piece of serious hardware. The hard drive’s much louder, too. I don’t know; maybe it’s just me, and my frustration in unexpectedly having to pay $1,300 for it (which I honestly can’t afford, and had to put on my already charge-heavy Visa card).

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